I finally lost my job at the hands of my workplace serial bully boss, leaving at the end of November, after being accused of incompetence, based on uncompleted data entry, while working alone on a holiday. Everything possible that could go wrong, did go wrong on that day, probably the worst day of my entire career. I worked 11 hours that day, without a break or a meal despite being physically ill with a raging sore throat.
I called the office early the next morning reaching a coworker, and described the problems of the previous day, including how long I had worked. I told her I would be late, being both exhausted and ill. As soon as I arrived, I was called to Human Resources, where my bully boss was waiting, with a Human Resource Rep., having been found guilty before I could speak. Detailing everything that went wrong, made no difference at all, having no witness to attest to my efforts. She then added to her complaint, my arrival being late, while knowing I worked late and was ill. Her total lack of empathy, and disregard for my health, suddenly filled me with a chill, which grew into a fear, by the hate in her voice, thinking her capable of ending my life. Stating I no longer felt safe, being expected to work ill, I finally left, never returning to my desk.
I had a horrible time with my bully boss for months prior to leaving my job which took a toll on my emotional and physical health. For the first time in my life, I began having panic attacks, making my mind go blank, leaving me unable to respond to questions.
Since leaving my job, I feel utterly lost and physically and emotionally ill. I never fully researched recovery after losing a job to bullying, feeling confident that my knowledge of the subject would be enough to protect my emotional and physical health and prevent losing my job. How wrong I was!
Being a nurse, I logically concluded that I needed psychiatric treatment to help with my recovery, but after being evaluated by 3 different psychiatrists, I feel totally betrayed by that profession. NONE of them ever heard of workplace bullying and none of them seemed willing to take a few moments to look at my website or any other source of information on the subject. All three concluded that I was mentally ill, not emotionally injured, each labeling me with a different diagnosis.
The lessons learned;
-No matter how much you know about the phenomenon of workplace bullying and mobbing, it is almost impossible to make it stop and keep your job.
-Never seek medical, psychiatric or legal help, for issues related to workplace bullying, from a professional who doesn’t already have an understanding of the phenomenon of workplace bullying and mobbing.
Being “emotionally stuck”, as one reader described it, I have been at a loss for words, leaving me unable to add new content to this website for several months. But the passage of time in it’s self, is slowly improving my outlook, so keep coming back, new content will follow soon, most likely about the subject of recovery after job loss due to bullying.